This was originally going to be a behaviour experiment where I let toddler play with some balloons for one minute, but the anticipatory anxiety of them bursting was too great, so I decided to continue my work on popping balloons myself.
Last week, I acquired two black bags of inflated balloons from my mum’s church. I brought them home with the intention of using them for therapy, so one week later I carried out the experiment. I selected a bunch of balloons from one of the bags and brought them downstairs.
My hypothesis was that I would be comfortable popping the balloons with a pin. My anti-hypothesis was that I would be so overcome with fear and anxiety I would not be able to carry out the task.
Husband provided me with a pin, and although initially hesitant I popped all of the balloons myself. I felt happy afterwards but also relief that the task was over. I need to keep doing this until popping balloons is no longer something to prepare for. I wouldn’t have been able to do this a few months ago, so progress is definitely being made!