Wow, what a difference in how I am feeling and behaving!
Argh I’m going to sound a little bit preachy now; believe me that is not the intention I just want to share how helpful I’m finding keeping a bullet journal. It’s like a paper PA that has seen a massive increase in my own personal productivity in the week that I’ve been keeping it. Like paying outstanding invoices promptly, signing up for things, working out, meditating and being more aware of what I’m eating.
I love being able to set daily goals for myself and the satisfaction of crossing off each task as I complete it. In addition, because I have been able to keep better track of it I have been meditating almost every day (only times I didn’t were after an evening of drinking – not really the best frame of mind for me to sit still!) and working out at least every other day.
I really like doing kettle bell workout videos on YouTube. As husband does kung fu, he finds it helpful as well to do between classes and I love that it’s something we can enjoy together. As the videos range from 15 mins to 30 mins I find myself sometimes doing a couple a night, it’s getting addictive! I am pleased with past me for picking up a couple of kettle bells from Aldi when they were on offer a while ago, will definitely be looking to purchase another soon with a heavier weight. I haven’t noticed any difference in my weight/body shape yet but it’s only been a week and I am enjoying the fact that I have made a commitment to myself and am sticking to it more than anything else at the moment.
I also found out that my surgey will be on 2nd July. I’m scared – not going to lie – and to be honest the worst bit will probably be when they cannulate me! But I plan to use the techniques I have learned through CBT and mindfulness to try and make it as least stressful experience as possible. Plus husband has 2 weeks off work so I know the boys and my mum (who I work with) are going to be OK.
The mindfulness meditations I have been doing have made me feel overall calmer; in particular when dealing with children who refuse to sleep/settle/not sleep through the night and also feel more positive despite the resulting lack of sleep.
I have been trying to do the loving kindness meditation over the last 7 days but to be honest, I’m having trouble getting into it as much as those that focus more on the breath/body so will be trying that kind this evening. So yeah, it’s nice to have something positive to talk about!
I also managed another period of the boys playing with balloons… husband even blew another one up (sneaky man!) and was releasing it much to the boys’ delight. I feel like I cheated a bit as it was mainly whilst I was in the kitchen preparing dinner but this for me is progress, and I kept popping my head into the living room to see what they were up to.
Definitely feeling a lot better than I did a year ago. Give meditation and mindfulness a try, I’m still very much a beginner but already feeling the benefits!