Thanks to those who are still with me, it has been a few months since my last post. I am holding the fort solo so this may well take all morning to write. Rather than summarise the last few months, let’s have a look at what’s happening now and what’s relevant to this blog.
The main difficulty I am having at the moment is with the biggest small. He started nursery part time in September; and two weeks prior to that he all of sudden decided he wasn’t going to use the potty or toilet anymore. Fast forward to this week, and despite my plan of revisiting toilet training alas it was not to be, so looks like we’re going to be waiting until Christmas before braving the pants again. Disheartening? Yes. End of the world? No. He still fits in pull-ups and nappies at night. I guess I mainly feel disappointed because he was independently taking himself to the toilet over summer and then just regressed 10 weeks ago.
Littlest small is having a bit of a skin flare-up at the moment; he had to be seen in the children’s emergency department earlier in the month because his eczema got really bad and the poor dude ended up on antibiotics and steroid cream. It’s still something we have to keep an eye on and meanwhile have to cover him in thick ointment twice a day which husband particularly dislikes as he hates the texture! Can’t say I blame him.
Small people aside, I have noticed how Mindfulness has been effective at helping me cope with balloons and fireworks in social situations recently. Last weekend I was enjoying a girly night with my lady friends, we were sat in the back garden with a fire blazing and there were firewoeks going off at random times throughout the evening. They weren’t particularly loud, and the amaretto being consumed may have helped calm to nerves but it felt like a big step. Then the following day, as a family we went with out good friends for lunch at a pub in town and there were balloons all over the place (as decorations, not where people could play with them) and I didn’t bad an eyelid as I walked in and had an anjoyable meal. I soon forgot about the balloons, and if any burst whilst I was there I certainly didn’t notice. Since my operation I have neglected my mindfulness studies somewhat so have made a conscious effort recently to get more into it.
One of my short term goals is to get back into diet and exercise; I hve recently purchased a years’ membership to both Slimming World Online and the gym and neither are going very well, a month in. I have been too lenient with myself when it comes to eating and not exercising so realise i need to incorporate mindfulness and more self disciplne to make this investment work for me, starting, well, today.
I’m trying to make a conscious effort to think before I eat about if I am hungry and if what I am going to be putting in my body is worth it and try and take some steps aorund the house to stay active. This may prove challenging with a clingy small but will do my best!