Can anyone else identify with me here; my diet is currently pretty poor (not overall,more the fact I tend to binge on ridiculous crap in the evening) resulting in me being overweight. However on the flip side, I now work out at least every other day and run 10k per week over 2 evenings so I am probably physically fitter and stronger than I have ever been.
I feel good, my mental health is good but no difference on the scales or with the way my clothes fit! This is why I currently identify with, and like the term “fit fatty”. Yes, my body shape is… Bluntly speaking..fat. But I am a lot fitter and stronger than many ladies I know who have a more slender figure, so I feel more confident about my size knowing that, my love of pizza and carbs aside, I am actually pretty healthy otherwise.
I am not naive, I know I need to make more of a conscious effort to say NO to popcorn, massive portions of noodles and take away food especially if I want to see a difference on the scales. And the surgery I require is most likely a direct effect of having a poor diet over the years. Hands up, I need to take more responsibility especially as a mother.
But that doesn’t change that I feel confident, am learning to say ” f**k it” to any negative feelings on my part about my shape and I know that I am myself and not the sum of what others think of me. Also, I can run. 🙂
Since my last post, I have generally been feeling a lot happier and brighter. Husband is embarking on his dream of starting a PhD in October, and my own academic aspirations look to be partly fulfilled next September as I am hoping to start my MSc in Psychology! It will be difficult both mentally and financially, with the added challenge of two small children but we want to do it so much so I will be sharing that journey here no doubt.
In addition, I was in touch with my former undergraduate superisor and my independent study has been accepted for publication in an actual psychology journal! Exciting!
An update on my 32@32: things hadn’t been going so well until Friday just gone when I ran my first 5k in ages. I have also been trying to meditate each day for 10 mins and find it really relaxing. Tonight I did fitness blender (on YouTube)’s 30 minute kettle bell beginner workout and am proud to say I am sat here in my own sweat having successfully completed it and enjoyed it. Definitely ready for a bath though!
I have a wedding to attend in 2 weeks and anothrr in just under 3 weeks. If I want to fit into my planned outfits this needs to continue!
A much better week at Speech and Language group for toddler today, and a very helpful and positive chat with the health visitor. I have felt generally more energised today, and have remembered to read through my affirmations I posted about yesterday. Still going with it though!
I am on day 14 of the 30 day full body toned workout challenge.
180 Jumping Jacks DONE (130,50)
135 squats DONE
11 push-ups DONE
75 crunches DONE (managed about 50 or so in a row and then had to have a couple of pauses)
1min 30 plank DONE (1min, 30 secs)
2min 20 wall-sit DONE (over 3 attempts, really felt the burn tonight!)
One of the affirmations I posted about yesterday is “I choose my own goals and my criteria for success in reaching those goals” My goal is to complete this 30 day challenge, though I know it’s OK if I don’t manage 30 consecutive days. And I allow myself to complete the exercises in stages, over the course of the day if necessary. As long as I do the correct amount of exercises for the right amount of time I feel it successful.
I may have mentioned before, when performing any kind of exercise when it gets hard I try a mindful approach, feeling and embracing the pain and difficulty to try and bear it for longer and push myself. It’s still difficult but definitely noticing a difference, which is why I note down how many attempts it takes me to reach each goal e.g. performing a 1min 30 plank in 2 sittings.
Something else I am proud of myself tonight; I watched “The Walking Dead” with no snacks apart from my between-exercise amaretti biscuits. Wow that makes me look like I have some kind of food problem! Ha!
Yeah, I was enjoying an amaertti biscuit after every completed exercise. Makes me feel like I earned them! So that was today’s update. Still trying to work on “I accept what happens to me without frustration”!